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Thursday, March 29, 2012

Of all the terrible things you did to me, probably the worst one...

On the day my mom died, KNOWING I had an emergency flight to catch to Michigan the very next morning, you told me... your friend had a birthday thing that night, and that you were going to swing by there.....

you were gone that day from about 4pm to 1am. Probably the saddest day of my life, and you. were. partying. I should have known from that moment on to be done with you.  But ha nope, I stuck around.

I should have ALSO been leary of the fact that the DAY we got together, you made out with a girl RIGHT in FRONT of my face. Sparking the conversation "Well if we were officially together, I wouldn't do things like that anymore"...

and even after alllllll of the things I did for you while I let you live with me, share my phone bill, support your stupid "job", ALL of my concern and care, was returned...with nothing. It was returned with a move out while I was away... you taking the tv we bought TOGETHER, but somehow leaving me with all of the responsibilities of the cat YOU wanted...and a brand new picture of you and some new b**** as your main profile picture.  You never really cared huh?

I sure know how to pick these f****n losers huh?  I really need to sit down and analyze why every love interest I pick is the ultimate fail of all fails. Why do people feel the need to keep doing me wrong?  Like seriously, what did I do?  Is it all those mirrors that I broke? Those ladders I walked under? What??? Is there ever going to be hope ever again for anything serious?

What is love? Definitely nothing I've ever experienced.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Trayvon Martin....

I would first like to say, it is very sad when anyone is randomly taken from this earth.  Be it young person, old person, black or white... anyone! Why this very particular case grew to the proportions that it did? I guess I will never really be sure (kind of like how some of the most average pictures on tumblr have thousands of "like" - just a metaphor btw, calm yourselves!).

To my understanding, the people are outraged because: a young black boy was unnecessarily killed by a latino, who is 10 years older, under the grounds of "self - defense". There was no investigation, and the man was not arrested.  Que the community to unrest...

I agree, that based on those facts alone, there should have been some sort of trial.  I agree that this seems to be a very tragic death, and I also even agree the shooter to be gravely wrong from what I know to have happened.  But people...if there is one thing I've learned from watching countless hours of law and order, is that the law system in America is very fickle! Like seriously! There are so many loop holes and red tape involved with the law system, how evidence is obtained, outdated laws, jurisdictions, he say/she say, everything! There are some people who get away with freaking murder, and some who get prosecuted to the fullest without even really being guilty at all! My grandfather died in prison after being put in there before I even really knew who he was.  To his last days on earth, he stuck to his story that he was innocent.  My mom would take us to see him all the time, and she'd talk about how she was working to get his case appealed. But never again was he a free man.  Bottom line... the law system is FKCED.  It cannot be trusted. EVER. As much as we rally and protest and try to change little things here and there, it will STILL. BE. FCKED!

Also, there is so much hatred towards this man (George Zimmerman), and everyone associated with him. I hear there is even a bounty placed on his capture by the black panthers.  No one cares about this guys family, who had absolutely nothing to do with the murder or anything.  What is this backward nonsense?  Who are we as people to destroy even MORE lives in this process?  Our place isn't really to seek out our own justice, that is the lords.  Only he knows.  Only he can inflict an equal punishment for the crime that Zimmerman has committed. Not any man.  Really tho, who are WE to judge anyone? The world is so backwards in this day and age.  Would you not think it wrong for a mafia guys whole family to be tortured, JUST because the mafia guy screwed someone over?

I am not trying to argue the events of Trayvon's untimely death.  I'm not even siding with this guy Zimmerman.  I'm just saying, this whole thing has turned into even more hatred towards one another.

Please let me know your thoughts...

Thanks for reading!

Peace in the middle east....

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

Sometimes we do some veryyyyyy strange things when we're alone. And we think no one is watching...

We also say a lot of things, to ourselves really, when no one else is around.

In that sense, we are all pretty strange creatures.  We just don't fully know how to express our inner most desires to the world, so we act out while by ourselves.  But how do we know we aren't being watched?  Our every move, everywhere, every single freaking thing we do? Actually, we are.  By a higher power?  Perhaps...

Just think, a higher power out there knows all of those strange things we do and say when we THINK no one else is watching.  For years and years, ever since we've been born.  Not even our mind is safe.  Even if we don't necessarily do or say the things, we think of even stranger things...

But then again, what is strange? What is normal? What is right or wrong? There is only difference. We think certain behaviors are normal or acceptable because the majority has deemed it as such. Which started with just one person who deemed it a such.  Just think, the entire rightness or wrongness of everything that is in our society today began with one person. I had to have right?

Is this making any sense?

p.s.  Time is money right? Yet time, you can never get back, it is irreplaceable.  Money comes and goes as it pleases.  It can be taken from you, given to you... at any moment! Not time, it is constant.  So why do we chase money and give up all of our time to it so freely...which we can never get back?  Moments are slipping away in every breath we take! In every word you are reading right now!  Is it that we don't know what to do with it?  We feel as if we have an infinite clock that will never run out? Hmm...


p.p.s. Don't mind me, this Mucinex DM has me kinda high....