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Monday, June 07, 2010

UPDTAES in this mofo!

(I'm trying this new thing where I'm checking my spelling and grammer for blogs now. BLAAAHHH, but I figure, I may as well...try? Eh.)

Hey everyone! It's about 2:05AM. I have to go to work at 10:30 tomorrow morning, but I'm up for some reason. I'm sitting on an air mattress in my new room...in Manhattan bichesss!! Yes that's right, I am finally ACTUALLY in Manhattan! My room is pretty darn cool too (minus the whole practically sleeping on the floor thing). My roomates are cool as well, I hope we don't start hating each other and getting on each others last nerves tho. But I'm a pretty easy going, low maintence mami, so there should be no worries. I have stopped using twitter completly (for now). I don't know man, twitter just got really freakin irritating for some reason! Too much bragging, boasting, fake a** friends, wack a**/cliche' "advice", know-it-all, posers, hoes, and just all kinda bleeehhh stuff. I'm not making any promise that I'll stay off for good tho lol, cuz I mean...that stuff is addictive son!

Anywho, my life is pretty good. My job is great, my bosses are even greater. I'm not broke at ALL anymore (well maybe still a little). I party all the time, and go out and meet really fun, cool peeps. It's lovely.

But...

What's next? I came out here for a reason yall. I need to be successfull in what I'm trying to achieve. What exactly is it that I'm trying to acheive? It seems so vauge everytime I try to explain it. When people ask me what I'm doing, how I'm doing it...a lot of "um's" and "you knows" are involved. I would like to start giving these people a solid answer. I would REALLY just like to not even have to say anything, and let what I'm doing speak for itself. I need to figure out how to get to that point. I need to figure out what it is exactly, goal wise, I am trying to obtain so that I can speak it into existence.

In case you guys haven't noticed by now in reading my blog, my ways may seem extremly unorthodox, but I accomplish every. single. effin. thing I put my mind to. Really I do tho! Go back and read my old stuff! It's kind of amazing. I know that since I am finally in Manhattan, I need another specifc goal to work towards and obtain.

Sometimes I feel like I have lost my...sparkle? Eh, I don't know you guys. I know what I want in my heart, but communicating it with the rest of the world is the hard part. I have to get my mojo back. Someone help. God?

P.s.

I live with actresses now! So maybe that will help motivate me to do ish! I also favorited a website with a list of the top 100 entreprenuers who succeeded without a college degree (which is something I DEFINATLY do not have...do yall know how much I owe Wayne State/ the government????). Basically, I need my creative juices to start flowing again. I feel like those tiny little angry beavers from the nickelodeon show have built a dam on the river of my creative juices, and stopped the flow. How do you get rid of dams?

p.p.s

Lots of things have been irritating me lately, my mind needs a sedative. Or maybe, a hot summer romance. Yeah, the second one.

p.p.p.s

It totally sucks that I've stopped tweeting, cuz i be having stuff to say! Whenever I think about it, I jot down tweets on my blackberry. Lame, I know, but here are a few:

-Its crazy when I see white people who are more tan than me :/

- Lmao @ "Brooklyn we go hard" shirts and the people who wear them

- I have NO idea why i try to do mad stuff RIGHT after I paint my nails. grrr


bye bye yawl!!